Afraid

I hate needing someone 

As much as I need you

My mind tries 

To convince my heart I don't 

Sometimes my heart is swayed

By the mind's insistence

It lets slip the hand 

Which holds you close 

Lets my heart turn 

Lets you pass from sight

Touches are missed 

Words Are missed

Conversations become obligatory

Until you are almost gone

Then my heart feels the loss

Just by the near proximity of it

It cries out in anguish

It cries out in the need 

It has tried to ignore

I love needing you

I need to love you

I am afraid

I am afraid to need you

I am afraid not to need you

Loving you scares me

Not loving you scares me more

© Ron Simpson Jr.