There are words
that remember for us—
words like an eruption
we could not stop,
the ones we emptied
like pockets full of stones,
the ones that carried
what we could not bear.
And then there are the others.
The ones shaped
to look like truth,
smooth as river glass,
harmless in the hand.
Plastic words.
Weightless.
Bloodless.
Convenient.
I have used them.
Held them up like offerings
without ever touching
the heat beneath.
I have spoken
near the wound—
close enough to gesture,
far enough to stay clean.
I have written
from the perimeter,
commented
without committing,
crafted sentences
that sounded honest—
costing me nothing.
Because real words—
the ones with memory—
cut on their way out.
They drag the body with them.
They return us
to the quake,
to the wind,
to the moment
we first broke open.
Plastic words do none of this.
They do not tremble.
They do not ache.
They do not remember
because they were never there.
And I have hidden behind them,
let them stand in for me,
let them speak
in my stead—
a ventriloquist’s truth,
a safe approximation
of being known.
But every time I return
to the real words—
the costly ones—
I feel the edge again.
Not as deeply,
but sharp enough
to know the difference.
It is easier
to sound honest
than to be known.
Easier to craft
than to confess.
Easier to write
than to reveal.
But only one of these
remakes us.
Only one
remembers.
© Ron Simpson Jr.